a five letter word describing how i feel.

that'll be 'b-o-r-e-d' as usual. --i shouldn't have posted this. i have nothing to say. i really have nothing to say. except.. i changed some stuff, which ended up terrible. i will fix it later when i have time. not that i dont have time right now, but i just cant be bothered. and i also deleted that graphics part, cos im not finished, and it makes the layout messy. --i know it's messy right now.. but i'll fix it later. so yeh. thats about it.
~`JJe~ <33




I can't feel the papercut.

This has been the second time. the first one was last week on wednesday. i got a papercut, it was sort of getting better, but not until i played volleyball, i probably tried too hard since i was so desparate that i made the papercut even worse. it was ripped open even more. --ok, not exactly ripped open, but it got bigger and worse, and a liquidy stuff came out, it was transparent though. i couldn't feel anything, i didn't even actually realised i got one from the first time. my friend told me about it at lunch. infact, i cant feel any pain, it's wierd. i thought papercuts meant to stings a little? lol. okay, well this time, it's worse. i got it like yesterday or something. it was near my nail. just then, i found out that 1/3 of my nail was covered in blood, i didn't feel anything. i thought the blood was still running out, so then i just sort of put my mouth over it so the blood will sort of stop (it's habbit i guess). it was dry. weird how i can't even feel anything huh? some of the blood is even still stuck on the sides of my nail right now.
on the last period of school today, my mood just totally changed all of a sudden-.-' and i got all pissed off for some reason. then i went to my locker before i caught the bus. and guess what? it.was.friken.broken. someone slammed it so hard that i couldn't open it, cos it the door of the locker thing went in. i got it out again eventually anyway. but it was a little.. bent. ugh, owells. i have to go. it's a little late and i have to do stuff else. i'll post later tomorrow maybe.

~`JJe~ <33




Busy for tonight.

I'm busy for tonight. well, im blogging right now, and updating my new template in the other blog of mine, which i also changed the name of the blog.. from "MINE" to "..A world of Nonsense.." go there, check the template out, and tag!^^ --oh not to mention i have to put up dev's template in her new blog. yes, she's making one, actually two. she said one for her when she's happy, and the other for her when she's cranky or depressed or stuff like that. I'll put em up in my links out later when she's finished. Unfortunately, i have done nothing for that indonesian blog i wanna make. im so too busy-.-' hah. owells. it will take awhile i mind you. i'll do it when i have a free time, and i will do my graphics for people as well. if i can finished them all, it'll be excellent. this blog can also a graphic site/blog and a personal blogger of mine^^ so.. all you need to do is wait.. (for a long time i think, but hey, just wait!)

For today, nothing special. just did usual stuff, and i made some stuff for decorating my locker. owells, i have to go. i have so much to do, yet so little time... im even doing four things at once; blogging, school stuff, photoshop and listening to music. *sighs*
~`JJe~ <33




Another saturday, with an earthquake in Indo.

There's a huge earth quake in Jogja, Indonesia this morning. I didn't even find out until i came home at like.. 5 something in the afternoon. i sort of have relatives there, but i dunno if something bad happened to them or something. owells, just hope they're safe, and those other cool people in Jogja too. --Saturday, just as usual. had an mtc. and well, i got some problems with my mood today. *sighs* it gotten worse since yesterday night. well its a little late, and am doing in my visual art and english homework, and i have to wake up really early in the morning, so i better go now. ill meet you all tomorrow hopefully.

~`JJe~ <33




Today.

today = boring, shitty. im not in a really good mood today. and it've been super boring, since i didnt go to athletic carnival and stayed at home. *sighs* gah. thinking about writings. it've been since i was in year four or something, practically since i moved here, i dont have any diary or something. i mean i know i have this damn sucked blog of mine that i write nearly everyday, but still, isnt it a little different? i mean, i dont like write exactly how i feel about everything in here. which i decided not to (pft) and am happy about it. i rather keep things to myself to be honest. my lips are sealed most of the time, even though you might not noticed or dont even know. and to be really honest. i usually keeps the drama low, seriously, people have their own problems, so why bother?-.-' --okay, what the heck? i've been in 'Lala Land' most of the time today.

Today is.. well, ugh. that's it, ugh.. just.. ugh. there's no badluck or anything like on monday 2 weeks ago (yes i know i cant get over bout that, so shut up) but it's just that boring. and it seems so ugh. i dunno why, it just is. i'm not even sleepy right now and it's like 11:09. --i also know i usually sleep really late, which is why i have those blue-ish thing under my eyes-.-' --but usually, my eyes are just a tiny bit heavy, but not now, not tonight, not right now. owells. i really wanna keep typing right now, but i can't. my damn brother's waiting for me impatiently to finished using his computer (dev's using mine). yesterday i didn't post anything, i cant be bothered. so now i post. okay, i'm a little, okay, maybe not a little, maybe i am getting pissed off now about my brother. ugh, gah. enough stuffs, im bloody out of here!

~`JJe~ <33




Desperation leads me to victory.

yes it does. desperation does leads me to victory. for example, today. my team and i won the game! it was such a great game! i nearly thought we were gonna loose. i love that game. and i made a score too^^ or maybe two? we were so desperate that we tried so very hard to win, even though 3 players were missing. miracle! we won! lol. what else.. i have maths test tomorrow. wish me luck. someone said it wasnt that hard, but who knows. my finger tip havent even touch the maths book. i should start reading over shouldnt i? well im going to, soon. nothing else i guess. so uhh,, im out.

~`JJe~ <33




Untitled..-.-'

wahaha. ok, im just bored. am listening to random songs right now. --that includes untitled-simpleplan^^ thats why i put it up as the tilte of this post, cos i have no idea what else to put-.-' i havent do so much stuff for that indonesian blog of mine, cos firstly i cant be bothered, and i have many other things to do and think about besides that right now.
i finally have a locker. tomorrows wednesday, so wish me luck for volleyball and stuff, wish me and my group luck to win. what else to say.. i dunno. maths mid test is coming thursday.. and next day, friday got athletic carnival. i dunno if im gonna come, cos i dont think i wanna race or something. it'll probably raining or too windy, cant be botehred. i'll either watch people, talk and do stuff, or stay at home^^' *sighs* owells.. thats about it for today.. tata.
~`JJe~




So much to do, so little time.

god damn that rain outside. i had to pick up the clothes that i hanged last time just then. it's bloody freezing *shivers* --anyways, i have science test tomorrow. i hope i've remember most of the things, which im quite positive about it. it's just wether i'd be still remembering it by tomorrow. oh well. i have many other tests other than that this week and the following week, except for visual art i think. cos the record will be the marks we got from the works we've done, which im glad about. wish me luck. there's also loads of other things i have to do too. but it's just... ugh. too much. well, let's not start to complain. i gotta deal with it (thats the thing, its hard-.-') but hey, im still young, i mean this is just still some everyday stuff.. so yeh, nothing too big. i should be glad about it dont you think?

nothing else important. well this monday isnt as bad as the other monday i had, last week (the wrost) but.. i have a big announcement!
I'm thinking about having an Indonesian blog.. I mean.. another blog of mine, but in indonesian. For you's people who's Indonesian, you might wanna know. 0203But i'm still working on it. It'll be similar to this one, but in different style of course. And i'll be writing in indonesian. I'd try to make no mistakes or get mixed up with english. promise. cos that sometimes happens. but still, i'll try as hard. and it wont be in those formal way like.. "saya tidak mau" (means i dont want to) no no.. it'll be just normal, but not too.. flashy or bright or.. those ones with 'StIcKy-CaPs' they're bloody annoying i hate it. So it.will.be.normal. just like this but indonesian as i said before, and the layout will be a little different as well. once again.. For those Indonesian people who's reading this post, check it out soon when i'm done!! i will tell you and it will be in my "Links Out" -okay.. thats about it..

~`JJe~




whatever you wanna tittle it..

tomorrow's monday already, same routine everyday. not to mention half yearly test's this coming week-.-' --i finally pumped one of my basketball. next saturday after mtc, dev and i are planning to play with it. we went to easties today, ate, looked around, bought some stuff we didn't usually buy, went to my house, tried the things we bought, pumped the basketball, i went home and am doing this with music on atm. i just cant wait until science excursion. *sighs* i want this week to end really quickly and pass all my half yearly tests with good marks. im a little bored right now, even though i know i should be doing my school stuff or studying for the tests right now, but i cant help it, im just too lazy. --i shouldn't be shouldn't i? well my imagination is running wild right now, im thinking about a new one shot in my other blogger of mine. now, i should be starting on the one shot and doing my school stuff, so i better end this post now. wish me luck on my tests even though i know it's only half yearly, but i want to be in one of the highest class next year.. just.. wish me luck.. mwah.

~`JJe~




i dont like blue, but it's always blue.

im not in love with blue. but somehow things always ended up blue for me. like shirts or stuff like that. somehow this thought just came up to my mind-.-' -- well anyway, im bored just as usual. so.. let me list facts about what im doing and stuff now.

• name: anonymous.
• age: 200! ha!
• wearing: navy blue polo shirt, blue jeans. (i told you-.-')
• drinking: nothing.
• eating: nothing.
• doing: just sitting infront of the monitor doing this.
• listening to: Believe Me, Fort Minor.
• location: am in my room atm.
• thinking: what am i thinking.. i wonder..
• wanting: to go to the toilet asap.
• whats around me: air.

ah.. finished already? but im still bored! oh wells.. so what. i just wanna end this now. cos ive been starring at the monitor for minutes, thinking what else to write, but nothing was on my mind. nothing but.. well, nothin-.-' owells.
~`JJe~





The bloody dev.

tomorrows weekend finally. i dunno why i always got a stomach ache after school these days. --i finished that photo of dev, the one that is bloody. ok here it is:



i photoshopped it, of course. --she didnt really kill someone though!-- but yeh, well the pic ended up like that. *sighs* boredom. today was boring nothing interesting as usual. so nothing to write about. and yeh, im out.
~`JJe~




thursday.

another one word tittle, thursday. i dunno what else to put. pretty good day until lunch. even though it wasnt as bad as monday, still. my speech went pretty good, not so wonderful tho, thats what i think. i was expecting the mark 97 for maths, but i didn't get it, unfortunately. i have to think what to wear to school tomorrow. i mean, it's not mufty, but.. well, my top was spilled by a er.. hot chocolate at lunch. damn that hot chocolate. i wore a jumper over it so no-one saw it, luckily. tomorrow i'll still be wearing my pants however, i'm not, by any chance, ruining my friday to a bad day like monday by wearing my too long tunic-.-' today's the day i was also waiting for, cos i was desparate to borrow other books. i know i could actually do it on any other days, but i dunno why i couldnt be bothered, but thursday is different, i have to go to library^^''
i forgot to pay my money for the science excursion today. remind me tomorrow.-- oh talking about reminding me, i want to put that photo of dev with her pale face. i'll try to do it today, only if i can. i better check where my white sleeve for tomorrow is.
~`JJe~




Luck.

luck for the day: so so. luck for sport today: not very lucky.
god damnit. we lost. by 3-1! how.. argh. i cant believe we lost-.-' well, we'll win the rest.. hopefully --the gymnastic thing was alright though. i forgot to bring my money, it was in my bag. so Mr. Wilson lend me some. i gotta pay him back tomorrow. we did.. well, some rolls (backward roll, forward roll.. rolling rolling) and flips, and well, we're practicing on cart-wheel thing, and whats it called.. urm, hand-stand and those stuff you do at gym..-.-'

*sighs* i have to study work on my school stuff now, especially mid test is coming soon. wish me luck. not much for today.
~`JJe~




what a boring day..

okay, let's face it. sometimes life does sucks thats what i think. people just expect us so much, too much infact, then they just got disappointed in the end because we're not as good as he/she expects us to be. that's why i also hate it when people are proud of us already; teachers especially, then they got all mad and disappointed when we don't do something that is like high or good; school works for instance. you know, people just don't do everything the best all the time. that's why what goes up must come down(oh i like that quote^^lol)

ah, nevermind all those shits. im just pissed off a little by something. anyways!
tomorrow is wednesday. which means volleyball and gymnastic for the day. *sighs* to be honest today didn't go all that good. it's just as boring, though not so much badluck^^" --one of the teacher; Mr. Davidson(sp?) got shaved today by a senior guy. he's bold now, look a little different. --oh wait. you dont know hy do you's? well..
the school sell some raffle tickets days ago. the prize of the 3 winners are a teacher's head each. they can shaved their head plus humiliate them infront of the school. guys teachers only though, ha=P i didn't watch it today at lunch ,i went to the library instead, can't be bothered. yeah well thats about it. im still thinking about how im gonna make this layout look a little bit more professional. lol. okay, im bloody hungry. so i gotta end this now.

~`JJe~




Worst Monday.

I already hate mondays from the first place, and today.. i hate about it even more. Not to mention about my 'badluck' lists and the wonderful things that happened today. don't forget there's an "s" in the end of "thing"! --why is it so bad anyway? well, i should list it down should i?

1. Yesterday night was bloody raining, my school pants were wet, so i had to wear my tunic, which is too big for me, made me feel and even looked uncomfortable, though people said it actually look nice on me, just too big. ugh.

2. because the tunic was too long for me, some people were honest to me, which was a good thing for me, well they said i look a little shorter in that too big tunic, which actually should look nice on me. *sighs*

3. I got my school photo, and nearly everyone in my year saw the close up of me photo, which is a little embarrasing for me, cos it was like.. big and i dont like it when people see my face that big. stupid teacher.

4. I nearly missed the bus for school in the morning.

5. I missed the bus after school, because i had to help a friend to fixed her bloody liquid paper that was stuffed by a guy in my class, after that, i had to wait again for the bus-.-

6. At lunch, i didn't have time to rest, relax, talk and eat. why? because firstly, i had to go to room L2 and get my school photo; took a while, most of my year were there. then i had to go to band straight away, which finished until lunch ends.

7. Right now i have so much school works to do, but i haven't even do a single thing of it.

--Enough information? i hope so. now you know. there's still one good thing though^^ in visual art class today, again, arjun (this guy in my class) as usual, tried to do a better ceramic mask and had a better mark than me. fortunately, he got told off by the teacher, and i had a way better mark than him =] lol. it's childish i know, but hey, im trying to look at the positive point of view, and all i got was that!-.-'

owells, i better work on my stuff, before it's too late. --oh, and you might noticed i added something about the template^^" yeah, wish me luck too on my speech for english this thrusday^^ gotta end this quickly.
~`JJe~




surprise!

for the first time of my life.. i made a layout by myself!X] and trust me, it took me bloody hours, and it needs some patient. today i didn't do anything at home. excpet computer of course. i even to forgot to keep myself busy with my DT assignment, owells. my computer's getting stuffed for some reason. ugh. owells. Got nothing else better to say now. --oh god, what's this weird smell? --anyway. this layout is really simple, yet good. that's why i like it. i want to add more graphics to it though if i can. but don't worry it won't be too flashy. so yeah, i better end this now and hopefully meet again tomorrow^^

~`JJe~




.b-o-r-e-d.

finally did the real mtc. yeah. only for about 1 hour or something. came to dev's house after and watched a movie (Flight of the Phoenix). and now she's sleeping over. nothing interesting today really. not until tonight. *haha* dev finally told him.. yes him. hm. been working on my msn space lately. cos im so bored. *sighs*

..........................................

I'M BORED. and i feel like reading something but i ran out of books-.-'
-- let's see.. mm.. the funniest thing today was when dev told him that.. well.. she likes him.. and stuff. she didn't really mean to say 'yeah' but... well she didn't. the 'yeah' was supposed to be for something else. but it looked as if the 'yeah' was for her liking him. lol. and well.. i was laughing and screaming at the same time. i really didn't expect her to do that. well i did. but i didnt know shes gonna really say it. but well she DID! lol. i was a little shocked there. lol. but owells, it turned out good anyway. i mean he didn't say about liking her back. but well.. he was acting normal. which is a good thing right-- oh, shes still beside me btw. applying some eyeshadow and stuff. oh well. that's probably the most interesting part of the day. --for me it is. cos it doesnt happen everyday.. =P --you know.. dev telling someone that she likes him. owells.

she's done with her eyeshadow. she looks pale =| -- well thats the point she said. and now i better take a photo of it. i'll try to put it on this blog^-^ --remind me that.
~`JJe~





197 pages a day.

Since i came back from school, all i did was reading until now. yes, i repeat r-e-a-d-i-n-g. when i read enough.. (which is 197 pages) i stopped. why? because i finished the damn book. seriously, i've got nothing else better to do, and i was bored. and well.. i was still bored, so i kept on reading and reading and reading until.. oops.. i finished the book already.. i thought it was for a couple of days to keep me busy. lol. owells. i'm just doing some stuff with my stupid msn space. i dunno why i even bother do something with it. --okay now. i wanna get some good sleep tonight, so i'm gonna end this really quickly.
~`JJe~





Weird but yeh.

I dunno whats up with this post's tittle but yeh. Today for PDHPE, we went gymnastic-ing. it was good i guess, i mean, better than at school doing other stuff for that subject. We did front flip, back flip, flipping-flipping and stuff like that-- trampoline too^^
Oh and yes, i did voleyball today. it wasn't that bad really, it was actually pretty fun, haha. i actually can serve too! lol, our team won today versing this other girls, their team name is i think The Roosters or something like that. Our team's name is actually something like Frotsy Bluez or something.. gay i know! but well, it wasn't my decision, and the teachers calls us The Frosties.. anyway, ha.-- My suggestion is it'd be better if it's something like.. Night Crawlers/z, or The Black Death (i know that's some kind of deadly desease(sp?), but hey, it's pretty cool^^) -- owells, that's my flavours, some people might not like it. but Frosty Bluez isn't that bad actually, haha, it's okay. compared to the other team names, our one is better.. at least that's what i think. The others' are like Sugar Babez, Swawsp.. or something like that.

I went home from school by bus of course, and i saw this weird dude starring at me and doing some kind of.. body motions, lol. he's i dunno.. it was like he was talking to me in body language. i didn't even look at him though, i ignored him. pfft. creepy o_O
owells, it's still a little cold today, though not as cold as yesterday. --yes, yesterday was damn cold! colder than on monday. i went back from school, well, i turned on computer, do stuff, and now im sitting in front of my computer typinf this post. i wonder what i'll do next...
~`JJe~





I'm not very good at words.

What is it with me and poetry? I found it pretty interesting (i guess) but still, i can only read it and stuff. im not good at putting words together.. you know. Unfortunately, in english, we have to learn more about poetry and stuff like that this time. owells, i dont really mind. it's cold today, really cold indeed, well not really, but its colder than usual. im still sort of shivering till now, ha. i have to think about the poetry homework btw, well i just need to find a good idea of.. narrative poem, poem narrative, or whatever it called. my head is just blak right now, plus im hungry. i'll eat soon though.

nothing interesting happened today, nothing at all. at least, i ended up wearing pants, not tunic. well, the tunic was like a little too big. so i tried to sew it. after the 30 minutes (or maybe more) trying-to-sew sewing kind of way, i finished, it ended up weirdly, and the top was.. well, you can tell that it was too big on me, but owells, i'll grow. of course. i decided that the weather was way too cold for wearing tunic. so i went outside in the morning and checked-- plus hoped that my school pants are dried. it did. so wore it instead, which was a little better, since my sewing was that ugly, and it was bloody cold outside. dont worry though, im taking of my ugly sewing again. oh, and i think the teacher was right, about putting me in a DT class thats about toys and includes sewing. because ha! i totally need to practice it better. lol. pretty much for today. nothing else really, just as usual.. you know. owells, cyas all.

~`JJe~





The second week.

Today rained, well at night. The bloody boys didn't pick up my pants for school tomorrow, so unfortunately I have to wear my friken tunic. ugh, owells. I was out somewhere, it was sort of boring to be honest, bu the food was nice. ria was on, and i just missed it again. for the second time. i think. ye, last friday she was on, but i went somewhere.. again! ugh.

I promise you, this week will be boring. I wish there's something unexpected coming. something good of course. lol. ha, i wish. --well, ye i wish. *sighs* my life is always boring-.-' owells. i suppose youre sick of me saying; im bored, im bored, im bored, im bored. too bad, you'll have to survive with that. alright, i just wanna end this quickly now.
~`JJe~




What happened while I was gone.

Sue me guys. i lied ok? thats not it for tongiht. I have so much more. I know that i wasnt gone for like a month or something. but blogging and write the things ive done for the day is just already in my 'to do lists' and its one of my hobby, well sort of. so if i just dont write whats going on, theres just something missing.

Just say, this term, im learning keyboard and percussion. for sprot, im doing volleyball. owells, at least we can jump around for the ball, which makes us tall. yes, im so obsessed about tallness. and the rest is just.. as usual. my er.. ill say mum's aunty, she came from indonesia, so we got to have this kind of 'family dinner' thing yesterday night. it was nice. i mean the foods and stuff was just great. we went to this luxury chinese restaunrant. and we get to have a fortune cookie! omg!XD mine says.. "Opportunities are about to unfurl themselves." lol. lets see about that. pfft.
Rest of school days was just as usual and boring. at least i have more money this week. im gonna try to keep it up. theres nothing more interesting. not like those up there are intersting, but the rest is just more boring.
--oh, also, i just like this question i dunno why.. ; "do you have any secrets?" haha. lol. and guess whats my favourite answer.. ; "sshh.. thats a secret." -- sorry, im just being so random^^" owells. now i have nothing else to write. im gonna end this post now.

~`JJe~

5:39 AM
Just don't let me fall asleep, feeling empty again

Finally back.

aha, i fanlly can post again. i dont know what gotten into my internet last time. blogger was blocked by the netgear thingie. owells, it's back to normal. also, im finally back to school. its not that bad really. at least i have something to do everyday, even though its works, but whatever.

Nothing much for today. I feel to just stay at home, sitting in front of the computer doing nothing. or play basketball. we finally found the basketball court! last week, when we tried to find it, we were actually already like close to it. but we didnt risk it, and it was really late anyway. the park was nice and big. shame we didnt pump our ball, so we didnt get to play yet. we rolled on the grass laughing though. lol. it was fun. but we get all drunk when we came back. owells. we rolled from on top of the hill.

anyways, im also back with this new template. i hope you like it as much. send me comments in my Cbox. i have a feeling also to close down what called 'my friken official site' why? cos i cant logg in to it! ugh. well, im going to move it all here in my new template when im finished. just wait and see, but i'll take a lot of times mind you, cos im playing lazy these days. alrighties, thats all for tonight, cyas.
~`JJe~

3:09 AM
Just don't let me fall asleep, feeling empty again