First post in 2007..
HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!
Uh huh. Just thought I'd drop that by..

I didn't do anything. No fireworks or anything. Stayed at home and watched it on TV. Didn't have the mood and was staying out of the stinking and drunk crowds in City. Haah.
Here comes another year.. And I'm moving in less than 3 weeks. Not that I want to stay. But I don't want to go either. -- I just dropped a hair and it's dark brown. Stupid sun. That reminds me.. time for me to dye my hair dark violet soon.

Edit:
Okay. Obviously. This is a day behind. This is 1st of January 07. Not 31st of December 06.. Also, as you noticed I finally changed the layout. Abit messy and weird, but it looks fine. I want to upload previous skins I made to blogskins but my internet's too effing slow to even play songs. Argh. I hate this.

~`JJe~ <33




Got myself a new mp4. Although I don't know how to charge the battries. I know, go ahead and laugh at me, but this mp4's pretty weird. I still like it though. 2GB, black, slim, thin.. After what felt like years I finally got it and got myself some nice shirts as well. Anyhow, you don't know how frustrating it was trying to find the mp4 I wanted.. Nearly all of them (that I'm interested in) are sold out.

I don't like sleeping much anymore. Well I do, but the weird and annoying dreams I'm having lately are irritating. Then I get up the next morning going all cranky and so unfresh. Always. When I'm not sleeping, everything's boring, pointless.. and so on and so forth.

~`JJe~ <33




I feel like SUCH a fool.

So there I was again in some random (and gloomy) place in the City with Cyn and once again something weird happened. We were talking about robbery and all and I had my wallet in my hand. Then a random guy appeared from the back saying loudly "Excuse me, we need photos!" I was kinda scared and shocked. I thought the guy was about to ask me to give him my wallet. And being scared like that, of course I didn't hear what he said. So he replied my "Huh?" with.. "We need photos". Hearing the 'we', I turned around and saw another guy. If you were me, you'd think that they want us to take pictures of them.. - but no. The guy just slipped between me and Cyn and put his thumbs out whilst the other guy got his camera out. Then he paused and said loudly to Cyn "Smile! This is happy times!" - Or did he say 'fun' ? Meh, something like that. He stucked he thumbs out again and the other guy went "Smile!" and took a picture.. or two.. or three.. Then they ran off with one of them saying "Have a nice time in Sydney!"

I'm pretty sure both of us got the "WTF..?!" look in our faces. I was so curious why they did it (and still am) that I kept on asking the same thing over and over again. I couldn't get over it. So I convinced myself it was a dare and they chose us 'cause we looked harmless. Psh. But seriously.. they got our faces!! WTF?!

~`JJe~ <33




I changed one of the music. Slip Out The Back by Fort Minor. It's what you call real rap songs.. not sex bling bling whatever. Very nice IMO. I love Mike; Fort Minor and Linkin Park, awesomeness. Both group/band are awwwwssssoooommmeee. One talented musician.

"Slip Out The Back"

You know me, I used to get caught up in everyday life
Tried to make it through my day so I could sleep at night
Tried to figure out my way through the maze
Of rights and wrongs, but like you used to say
Nothing feels like it's really worth it
Forget perfect, I'm trying not to be worthless
Since I last saw you I been looking for a purpose
Well I met this kid who thought like I did
He had a weird way of looking at it
This is what he said

Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you don't wanna be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared
Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you don't wanna be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared

I don't remember where I met him or remember his name
But he walked funny like he was just too big for his frame
Just over five foot but he weighed a buck fifty
And what he said just seemed so right it stuck with me
Listen its like poker you can play your best
But you got to know when to fold your cards and take a rest
And know when to hold your cards and hold your breath
And hope that nobody else is stacking the deck because
I don't need to tell you that life isn't fair, it doesn't care
It arbitrarily cuts off your air, and like you I want someone to say its OKAY
But in the truest parts of our hearts everybody's afraid
But just underappreciated and overwhelmed
Fighting so hard to hide our fear that were scaring ourselves
You understand when I'm saying that you always did
But its different in the words of a cowardly kid

Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you don't wanna be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared
Slip out the back before they know you were there
And at the worst you'll see nobody cares
Cos you don't wanna be around when it all goes down
Even heroes know when to be scared

I'm no hero, you remember how I was, you know
All I ever did was worry, feeling out of control
To the point where everything was going end over end
I'm spinning around in circles again
This is where you come in
All of this to explain to you why
I had to separate myself away from yesterday's life
Please remember this isn't how I hoped it would be
But I had to protect you from me
Thats why I slipped out the back before you knew I was there
I know you felt unprepared
But every single time I was around I just bring you down
And I could tell that it was time to be scared
Thats why I slipped out the back before you knew I was there
And I know the way I left wasn't fair
I didn't want to be around just to bring you down
I'm not a hero but don't think I didn't care

~`JJe~ <33




I just had a horrible thought of ditching this blog. Although I'm kinda still thinking if I should since people (my parents included) are starting to stalk me these days and I seriously need some privacy. But then again, I don't dare to just click the 'delete' button or never to type stuff here again (I know I sounded like a dipstick right there). Anyway, this layout is depressing me for some reason and I want to change it. Haah, I know I'm weird.

There's so many boxes and cardboards in my room. I feel like throwing them away 'cause I don't like moving. Except for the fact I'd get my own new room. I'm throwing everything away - well most of them anyway. Tomorrow's Boxing Day and what I've been waiting for has come.. Shopping Spree! And NO, I DON'T like shopping and go around malls taking hours starring stuff and drooling and buying clothes and whatnot. But for a long time I've been wanting to have new wardrobe and wanting to buy all these stuff I need, but I've been told to wait again and again. Although I know that I'm gonna be disappointed. There'll be alot of arguments between me and my mum (not that there isn't already) and all these stupid things I don't want to face.

Anyhow.. I don't know what to say so I shall close this post, feeling hopeless. Tata.
~`JJe~ <33






Nice. Gogo listen^^
And just to let you know, the date here is obviously behind like a day or so.
Anyway, I seriously need to update the music under the "listen". And I.. can not be bothered doing anything yet I have many things to do. Typical.. =_= Yup. I also need to figure out er.. an excuse to get my friend out of her house and go out with me and see me for the last time. Strict parents. Talking about parents, mine can't stop fighting to save their lives. Gah, whatever.
I love Linkin Park [/random]

*hums* I see the way you go and say you're right again, say you're right again heed my lecture... - Maybe I shall put it up, the other music are old already.

Edited:
Music is changed. They're now Face Down by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, The New Transmission by Lostprophets, High Voltage by Linkin Park and Wake Up by Three Days Grace. Not that you'd care to listen, but enjoy.

~`JJe~ <33




I'm the sweetest monster. The unhappiest cheerful person. The most ignored and unrecogniceable noticeable person. I'm the dumbest smart person. The youngest looking 15-year-old-looking girl. Haha. Urm, what else? The unluckiest lucky girl. The thickest understanding person. The coldest sensitive person. I'm the most unique typical girl. The best bad liar. The most unpredictable simple girl. The hardest known-able person. I'm the most untalented talented girl. The most unwanted wanted person.. - Am I making any sense here?

That was just a complete boredom. Blakh, how random. And of course add up 'the most unrandom random person' ..I'm scaring myself o.0

~`JJe~ <33




I didn't win.. so what? Mhm, I am disappointed and I swear that I made a face when they announced who won. Although I knew from the beginning there's no way I could win, but I was still expecting to win. Stu. I'm pathetic I know. At least I recieved 2 awards and another 4 the other day at my year's assembly. And yes, I will ask my parents for money or any other precious things I want.. not what I need. I had enough of being pushed to do something really good, and when I reached the top, I gain nothing. Well nothing more than people being proud of me and heaps of smile from idiots. - Oh wait, and certificates.. yeah.

Visual art was boring at the beginning. Me and my other friends who were there were about to jig, but then a friend said she's kinda scared of jigging especially in uniforms 'cos we'll get in deep shit later on. So we didn't and hung around outside the bulding instead. Got told off and were forced to help a teacher to throw some stuff out. The stuff were too heavy and it's gonna take forever if we go back and forward around the school bringing one by one. We saw 2 trollies and took it and it sure was way easier. It kinda distracted us though, 'cos it was kinda fun going on the trolly and being pushed around. Kinda rough at the same time; I got two scars going down my lap since I was wearing my dress and another one across my hand.

There's more through the day, but I won't bother mentioning them all. I missed the so-called-boring-party that's for sure. After all it was tiring, and for some unknown reason I don't feel proud or happy of myself and stuff. I've become so nuuummbb and I am tiirreedd and I have nothing else to show.. Toodles.

~`JJe~ <33




I want the hundred bucks. I want a hundred bucks. I need a hundred bucks.
Surprisingly, I was nominated for one of the best & outstanding student in my year. Ha! to that. If I win, I'll get a certificate and $100. Wish me luck, I want the money. Doubt it I'm gonna win, but still. I have this class Christmas Party next Monday at English and Tuesday possibly at Food Tech. I don't celebrate Christmas, but the foods are worth it. Lollies and drinks and chips, better than going to the canteen.. Next week'll be my last week at school in Australia ever. I'll try to enjoy it whilst I can I guess. Might as well bring camera.

Edited:
Okay. I'm a tiny bit surprised, but I knew it there was something wrong with this guy I know. The news were spread all around. You might heard of this already, but a 13 year old guy was charged for attempted murder. He spilt fuel on this little kid and lit him on fire. The little kid is now 25% burnt and the guy who tried to kill him is I bet gonna go for juvenile detention for heck of a long time. He was in my class last time and he used to be in my primary school. I don't watch TV that much so I missed it, but luckily thanks to my friend who told me about it, now I know. Thank god I didn't miss it! Apparently, his neighbour comitted suicide and it drove him crazy. Whoo. Something intreresting finally!

~`JJe~ <33




I am a monster. A mad mad monster. Leave me in peace if you want to be spared.
I do stupid and foolish things that I always regret. I am hopeless and worthless and I'm mad at myself, that's why I'm angry.
I am a confused monster. A monster with no heart. An abnormal monster.
Go away. Don't ever get close to me 'cos I swear you'll regret it. Leave me alone, you'd be doing yourself a favour.
GHHHAAAAHHHGGGRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!

~`JJe~ <33




Homework for me. Late, VERY late indeed. Blame my shoutbox, there's something wrong with it. I'm changing it soon. Goodbye old posts. Anyways, here we go. This one's from gHina.

**NINE last things you did**
1. last place you were: Home
2. last cigarette: Months ago at the city with Dev. I was just trying, curiousity.
3. last meal: Urm.. rice with this chicken thing.
4. last movie watched: Guess Who
5. last Phone call: Forgot
6. last cd played: those MP3 mixed I downloaded
7. last BUBBLE bath: long time ago
8. last time you cried: Forgot, and not telling.
9. last alcohol drink: oh, that night I think, the cocktail in Fujiya with Dev and Cyn.

**EIGHT have you evers**
1. have you ever dated someone twice: no
2. have you ever been cheated on: no
3. have you ever kissed someone: duh.
4. have you ever kissed someone you regret: hm dunno.
5. have you ever fallen in love: yeah. Linkin Park is my true love and music.
6. have you ever lost someone: yeh
7. have you ever been depressed: yeah
8. have you ever eat a life animal: i think..

**SEVEN branded things**
1. shoes: Converse. and my current platform shoes, forgot what it's called.
2. bags: Billabong and those random ones
3. shirt: JayJays, the others I don't even know.
4. make up: Body Shop, and my eye liner which I don't know what, and Impulse for deo.
5. jeans: second hand jeans?
6. coffee: Latte, Frapuccino, Capuccino, bla bla. Starbucks' nice.
7. glasses: Don't wear any.

**SIX things you did in the past four days**
1. Sleep
2. Eat
3. Walk
4. Talk
5. Throw things around
6. Fight with my brothers

**FIVE things on your mind right now**
1. SLEEP! gah.
2. Oh shit, shit, noooo... I need to do drama assign
3. Surprise surprise, I'm one of the top student of the year, doesn't matter, I'm moving anyway.
4. This
5. Linkin Park ehheh.

**FOUR people you can tell pretty much ANYTHING to**
1. Devita
2. Ria
3. Farah
4. Me

**THREE favorite colors**
1. Black
2. Fluoro Green
3. Violet

**TWO things you want to do before you die**
1.Change.
2.Everything that's possible, that is EVERYTHING

**ONE goal for this year**
1. Survive, grow taller, change, join LPU

Mau dilempar ke:
Anyone, whoever I don't care. I need to go off do works and sleep.

[random] Mike is a cutie, Chaz is so sweet, Rob is adorable, the other two's indescribeable. [/random] <(had to do that to cheer up and survive for another assign)
Done. Tata.

~`JJe~ <33






There.. up the new layout goes. Kept it simple, 'cause I couldn't be bothered doing anything fancy to it. It's more down-to-earth and all. Not to mention still weird. Just temporarily, I think I'll change it again soon, I want something more original and unique. Meanwhile, enjoy this one since I'm busy at the moment. Aww, goodbye Linkin Park layout, I loved that one :( Don't like this one that much. Owell.
I found myself day-dreaming awhile ago. I shall stop.

Screw you, screw you all, screw everything. Go away. Gahh.
..I think I'm gonna take back those words soon. But yeah, argh. Mmhhmm.... Bye.
~`JJe~ <33




I'm half way done making the new layout since I find people thinks that I'm kinda obsessed over Linkin Park for using this layout, which is abit silly. I'm not up to that level of obsession.. yet. Nah though, I don't think I'm that obsessed, I just like them very much because they're my heroes and life savers. And plus I don't.. - well, there's nothing left interesting to talk about online other than them since I don't really like to get into deep and very personal stuff. Okay, maybe I do talk about a little bit of it, but I'm not those people who uses those emo phrases about how they feel and those kinds of shit. I'm not good with those and I just don't like telling them, not that anyone would care. Plus I'm not good with words so no matter how hard I'm trying to say how I feel it'd ended up all fucked up and everyone'll think I'm a weirdo who can't communicate properly, ha! True though.

Anyhows, there's 3 lines of Breaking The Habit's lyrics in the layout. And I'll finish it up tomorrow since it's late now. I kinda got a little inspired by - well the song and the movie 'The Virgin Suicides' Yeah well, I know it has nothing to do with the song, but I watched it yesterday night, and I like this girl's shot so I cropped it and put it on, heh. Kinda a gloomy movie.. scary, 5 sisters all committed suicide 'cause of their too strict parents and being jailed up inside their house. I could imagine.. 'must be really really really hard, but I'd rather run away than killing yourself. Especially how you can't do anything and can't listen to your favourite music and have to burn them down and blah blah, just like a jail but worse.

Anyhows, I'm so freaken sick and tired of everything. Enough said.
~`JJe~ <33




Ever feel like no matter what you do, youre in the middle of all the crap, grief, and stress - as if trouble just always finds you?

..That was random. But I've been listening to Breaking The Habit, and I just thought.. well, no wonder it was quite popular 'cause alot of people can actually relate to it. It does kind of get over-played though. What more can I say, the song kinda relates to me sometimes too.. well lately, yes.

Aowiee, I'm so tired and hungry.. That rhymes..

Edited:
This is awesome. Check it out.





Oh.Mygod! Ahh!! *sigh* I can't wait any longer! ..No seriously, I really want to hear their new stuff in the new album. Especially how LPU6's launched. The video got me crazy just then. I want to join real bad, but my parents are probably one of those parents who goes.. "Ah. Don't waste your money. We're not gonna pay you for some stupid fan club stuff. Don't be too obessessed about them. You'll grow over them soon enough" and so on and so forth. Annoying, very. I have to find a good reason why they should pay for me to join it. Maybe I shall say.. "But they're the ones who makes me truly happy.. :("

I know.. it's been quite awhile after the last 'real' post I posted. So I think I shall post one now whilst I'm on the mood. So far I should say that it's been a tough week although it's still Wednesday. Okay, so I have many things to do as usual, but everything's going pretty rough lately. I slept at like 2.30 am on Monday (or I can say Tuesday) and woke up early to print my assignment, but still ended up a little late to school. After school, well it was hard enough to brought all the table settings for DT to school in such a rush, but coming back to school and busting so badly to go to the toilet plus a tummy ache was even worse. Instead of getting a rest, I did some other stuff and ended up sleeping nearly at 1 am. And now.. something that I've been hoping wouldn't come had come (other than LP breaking up) I lost my locker. Actually no, it's not my locker I borrowed someone's without his permission. But he never uses it, so I used it. When I came back from sport, I was looking through all the lockers trying to spot my blue padlock, but I couldn't find it. So I panicked, and realised a note in my locker "Get out of my locker by Friday or I'll chuck all these out" Well thanks to the dark brown bag I left in there, I could fit all my things and brought them back home.

Enjoy ending this post with the LPU6 vid. It's cool.. I'm kinda slowly having the idea of their new sound that they're gonna launch. Once again, can't wait.



LINKIN PARK UNDERGROUND 6

~`JJe~ <33




This was meant to be posted yesterday;

Happy Birthday Brad Delson!!!

Heh. I miss Linkin Park :( *is in a shitty mood*
~`JJe~ <33