Hmm.. yes, a new layout. A new style and is a little fucked up, but I got super bored of the previous one, and it looked shitty anyway. The picture itself took me 2 hours since I had no inspiration at all and I just starred at it for 10 minutes or so with a blank and the writings "Lost In Words". So.. I decided to worked on a new skin since I had nothing else better to do and I'm pretty bored at home doing nothing.. - *gasp* I know! I'm at home ;] There's Gala Day today and I forgot to pay the fees and stuff and I have no team and personally, I'm not interested at all, so luckily I can stay at home away from those weird people at school. Anyway, if you find one of the writings align thingies (I dont know what to call it and I won't bother finding out) goes to the top, simply refresh it, 'cause it's not meant to be like that. If it's still like that, blame your weird pc.

Finally alone.. at last! What would be perfect is if I took a shower already, 'cause I feel totally unhygenic. Anyhow, I feel numb, really. Weird huh? And I'm on the point where Three Days Grace rocks my socks! ..yeah, I'm in love with their new album and I can't wait for Linkin Park's new album next year. You should listen to their song called Pain, it's nice it kind of relates to LP's song Numb, but yeah, it's true and straightforward.

I'll keep busy myself today with music on 24 hours. I'm desperate to move as in house and location and school.. ..and eat mochi.. - that's it I'm going out today or else I'd get crazy again.

~`JJe~ <33




*gasp* Omfgsh! I survived today! Surprising eh? ;]
I feel jealous. Jealous of other people's life. Really, I am. I'm jealous of how many friends they can make and how they can stay at one place without moving around alot and just stay with their friends and life. I'm jealous of how special and lucky they are. I'm thankful enough of myself and life, but still.. I'm jealous.

Pft, I hate that 'jealous' word.

~`JJe~ <33




If I can do anything tonight, I'd either.. come back to the past, skip everything and go to the future and look for something better to happen, or sleep for the whole day tomorrow without noticing.
I'm not gonna be able to pass tomorrow, seriously. I'm so sick of school and all the situation there and it's too boring. I've learnt most of them years ago therefore I'm only revising and it annoys me so. I act weird at school and I just can't act normally. Outside school, I don't seem to have much life either. I don't know what to do these days and I've been feeling like a complete loser lately which is just.. pft. I've also been a little bit ignored (or maybe its just me who feels this way) and I get pissed off and down easily, which I don't usually show. Whyy am I soo pathetic? T_T

~`JJe~ <33




I have never ever thought how LP's music means so much to me before. Not that I don't listen to any other music, of course I do, I like Three Days grace, because their music sounds.. like.. tough yet true and it doesn't sounds soft, it sounds convincing.. and of course their lyrics. AFI has music that you just can't get enough of and keep on hearing it over and over again, not to mention how much work they put on to the band. And I like other bands that I cbf to mention em here. I just feel like putting this song on, it's nice, all the lyrics and awesome drums. And the main thing that the song's talking about is true.



Just thought I had to get that out. Thanks.
~`JJe~ <33




I don't seem to care much about blogging anymore. There's just so much to show, but so little I want to share. All my writing skills that used to interest people are gone as well now. Then I wonder.. What the heck am I supposed to say that doesn't sound cheezy, but still is honest? Lyrics are nice, but then again, I don't want to write each lyrics each time I feel something different. That's redicilous.. --And the stupid door always distracts me by moving every so often when I'm thinking. I shall close it properly *closes door* Egh, now the window! T_T

Anyhow, things are doing so normal, yet I don't feel normal. What excites me even more is that my msn and computer is definitely and completely fucked. And for some stupid and annoying reason, I can't use Mozilla Firefox and so now I'm using Internet Explorer until I figure out and make my computer back to normal.. whenever that is. And eh! I made a piczo. I seriously don't know why I even bothered, pft. You might want to look at it, but then again it's always dull. Just click here to go there. It's not finished yet just so you know.

I have been having trouble of communicating with others lately, and it makes me look like a complete fool and loser. I'm also pretty desperate to write down all the things that have been bottled up inside, but something weird is going on and I shall go.

Edited:
Oh, how could I forget?! Happy Eid everyone!! No more fasting, whoo. And forgive all the things I've done wrong and stuff.. yeah. Thanks.

~'JJe~ <33




It feels like I'm floating =/
I definitely need to get a life

~JJe'~ ♥




I'm on the mood where I really don't feel like seeing faces and other people. I'm also on the mood where I feel retarded and low and disconfident and feel like trashing the mirror if I look into it. I don't know why =/ I met Saskia today, she came from Indo for a couple of weeks. Nothing interesting actually happened. I missed her, but now that I've seen her it's just.. meh. (no offence) Well I wasn't that close to her anyway.

And what upsets me more is that all those hard works and time that took to bring LP to the top 5 of Favourite Music Band With Label was all pointless now and it's all completely gone. Sad huh? I'm not sure what happened, but I think one of the stupid moderator/administrator disqualified them 'cause they thought we cheated.. FOOL! Just 'cause we were moving in a fast pace and were catching up does NOT mean we cheated. Now that I figured out the stupid MyProfile Rockin Award is not organised properly, I don't care anymore. Not that I don't want to support LP, but the whole award thing is just shit. I've been so stupid all along.. T_T And besides, we only can win in ONE I repeat only ONE category. So I shall stop voting 'cause it's pretty much pointless and even though LP loses, we still know that they have the most favourite music band with label. It's just a fucking internet award thing.. not like it's a huge award. pft.

Things are so unlike me lately and oh lookie I'm sleepy already..! *yawns*
~`JJe~ ♥




Just thought I might post to get some stuff out.
One.. How the heck did Hinder got 11869 votes when they weren't even on the top 5 yesterday?!?! I think they cheated. I mean seriously.. it's almost impossible. It took us so long to bring LP to the top 5! and now LP's #4 and yesterday they were #3. But I'm sure we'll catch up again. We will. We have to. Even though we're first on the Video/Short Film.. but still. I really really want them to win on the Favourite Music Band With Label.

Second.. I feel like punching people on the face and throw this computer of mine around, 'cause I hate it with passion.. right.. but I love it at the same time.. T_T
And then I realised things are going well and yet I know that they'll all soon falls apart again. I know 'cause it always happens and I got used to it already even though sometimes I got annoyed. And ZOMG! I cooked brownies and it ended up nice. Hehe. It looked nice too.. well not really, but I made it looked nice anyway (by flipping the bad side to the bottom and added sugar icing) The brownies made me believe I can cook real good donuts this time.. so I shall try, it's not often that I feel like this. I feel normal. But then again, nothing seems to excite me anymore except for Linkin Park! *squeals hearing the name* =P

~`JJe~ <33




I'm surprised of how many people actually remembered and said "Happy Birthday" to me. Though the people that are close to me doesn't seem to care much and just can't be fucked to at least send me a message on messenger or something and drop a 'hello happy birthday'. Nice isn't it? I don't seem to get any present either (lol) owell. And anyway, no! I'm not gonna mention how old I am now. Why don't you use your imagination instead huh?

Well besides that^, I noticed that voting for LP is getting damn tough, but I'd still be voting even if I'm the only one (which I highly doubt that's gonna happen) they're on the #15 position. Whoo! 15 more bands to beat! Go people! Vote like crazy!! *actually worried inside*

Edited:
Whoa. It hurts how someone give you 'another chance' for your birthday present. I mean wtf? did I even ask for one? -_-'' And those words that come out of your friken mouth are so damn sharp. And I'm that nice to ignore them and keep doing what I was doing. But again.. MEH. --I've been having trouble of communicationg lately.. *sigh* 'kay, Thanks =]

~`JJe~ ♥




mmOkay.. I just need to tell everyone a very very very important thing.. especially for those Linkin Park fans out there.. like me. Anyway, here's what I wanted to say..

VOTE FOR LINKIN PARK ON MYSPACE HERE!!!

Vote people! They HAVE to win!! You don't have to be a member on myspace. You can vote every hour. So after one hour.. VOTE AGAIN! They're position is the #26 at the moment and heck they deserve to be in a higher place! So yeah.. vote! go!!

Edited:

I thought this blog of mine is totally gone and over because of some stupid hackers. No, really, I really did thought so. Cos the last time I came here it was all fucked up. Just then I came back just to see and boom! it came back to normal. Very glad I am.. *smooch the monitor* LP goes to the #24 now. This morning they came #32, but they're still far away from the first one so I'll be voting as many times as I can for the rest of the month. They're the only thing that makes me go all excited and happy. I'm serious. And I said the oath to join Linkin Park Army, which means I'm one of them now.

I [mjm] do solemly swear that I will support Linkin Park and defend the asses of Chester Charles Bennington, Michael Kenji Shinoda, Joesph Hahn, Bradford Philip Delson, Robert Gregory Bourdon and David Michael Farrell (aka: Phoenix) against all enemies, foreign and domestic; that I will bear true faith and allegance to the same, and that I will obey the orders of Officers appointed over me, in accordance to regulations. So help me God.

So yeah =] And when I can be bothered I'm going to gather points and try to be a Street Soilder. Yes, I love them that much (stfu). *sigh* My butt's killing me.. *votes again*

~`JJe~ ♥




I've changed the layout. It looks somehow the same except for the picture and colours and those small things. Like it though? I changed the music also. I decided to put songs that appeals to me the most. It still got Animal I have Become by Three Days Grace. I added Somewhere I Belong by Linkin Park and Who I am Hates Who I've Been by Relient K. Go check them out.

Anyway, I went through my own Archieve (again) and again I've realised how much I've changed these past years. I.. have changed alot.. and I mean ALOT. It's like the person I am now and the person I was last year and two years ago is two different people. I'm actually surprised of how much I've changed, and I don't know if it's actually a good thing or not. But to be quite honest, I am more full of shit now, but in certain ways, I'm more mature even though I made more mistakes these days and I'm more open minded.. really. But I miss those times and I miss Ria terribly T_T And I also realised that these days I 'clicked' more with older people o_0 No, I mean seriously.. I don't know, maybe it's 'cause my friends in my school, like the ones that are my age relies to me alot and abit too much and they just can't stop asking questions and help and yet they can't actually help or even understand me that much. Not that I don't like helping them, but it annoys me sometimes.. no offence. Anyhow, I don't care and I don't expect them to help nor understand me anyway =]

After writing that^ much,, I realised that.. I don't even know what I really want and I confused myself sometimes -_-'' --I want to keep myslef busy, that's what I want. *starts finding homeworks*

~`JJe~ ♥

PS: I'm so straight foward in this post I know.





I can't be bothered posting no more. Anyhow, I'll still post some stuff, but just won't be as often. First of all, check my account on blogksin. I made 2 skins.. so comment, download and rate HERE.

Yesterday I..
stayed at home, made a skin and stared at my monitor all day. I also tried to make a donut with my big brother which ended up.. bitter because of too much nutmeg and baking soda. From that, I've realised that I totally suck at cooking T_T At least it ended up looking like donuts. But from the first bite though.. it tastes quite nice and you'd be thinking "it's not that bitter.." Second bite.. it gets more bitter. Third bite.. it gets very bitter. Fourth.. you'd be spitting it out. *sigh* I wonder how my Food Tech. assignment will end up..

Two days ago I..
went to the city with Cyn. I made love/kiss/hug with a pole and recorded it for a $5 note, which I wasted on food in Fujiya for dinner that night. I will be putting the video of me making love to a pole later.. I think. I also tried to kiss a statue, but ended up bumping my cheeks into it. I kissed a tree also. Yes, I'm weird like that --Nah, it's just that I'm er.. DARING! yes, that's the word.

At least I'm not as weird as the old weird grandpa who sneaked in between me and Cyn when we were walking down the road. The old grandpa was also happen to be a er.. what was it again? ..Foot fetish. The first thing he said was.. "Hey, you have big feet. Does your boyfriend cuddle them?" (or something along those lines) to Cyn. I backed off, not wanting to be another target of a weird random person again since I once was a target of an Indian lady who thinks I'm in Uni. But anyhow, after talking to Cyn for quite a time, the old grandpa ended up talking to me anyway. And he said something like.. "How about you? What would you do huh?" My answer: "Uh.. Stuff..? o_0" Then he said.. "Would you accept him and let him go down and lick them?" I freaked out that time and again my answer was "Uh.. no..? o_0" His last words I still remember was "Well that's how you live in Australia eh?" Then he walked away. It was funny though, I couldn't help but laugh.

Another weird thing is that last night I dreamt of going to a mental hospital -_-' And people thought I was kind of insane or something. Nigthmare. That's about it though.

Edited:
New layout. Like it?

~`JJe~ ♥




I got a homework.. or i shall say survey. So Im going to do it now and here it goes..

Seven things that scares me:
1. Geckos
2. Lizards
3. God
4. Hell
5. Me
6. Waking up in one of those games like in the movie "Saw" (i know it's random, but seriously.. theres nothing else..)
7. Scary things that scares me

Seven random songs at the moment:
1. Dare by Gorillaz
2. Red to Black by Fort Minor
3. And One by Linkin Park
4. Going Under by Evanescence
5. Riot by Three Days Grace
6. There's a Good Reason These Tables are Numbered Honey, You Just Haven't Thought of It Yet by Panic! At The Disco
7. Figure.09 by Linkin Park

Seven things that I like the most:
1. Music
2. Bed
3. Food
4. Money
5. Linkin Park (the members&&their music)
6. Computer
7. Internet/Photoshop

Seven important things in my bedroom:
1. BED!! (of course)
2. Computer
3. CD Player
4. Wardrobe
5. All of my things.. like accessoris and stuff
6. Pillows and my plushies^^
7. Blanket

Seven random facts about me:
1. I am extremely weird
2. I snore when I sleep
3. People consider me as 'cute' and 'small'
4. I am anti-social most of the time and can be down right cold and careless at times
5. I'm open-minded (I am!)
6. I go weirder instead of quieter late at night
7. There's so many other things that you don't/won't know about me.

Seven things I said the most:
1. "uh huh"
2. "don't know"
3. "hm"
4. "eh. uh.."
5. "I mean.."
6. "what?"
7. "hmpft"

Seven things I plan to do before I die:
NOTE: I THINK THIS ONE IS ABIT TOO PERSONAL, SO I SHAN'T ANSWER THIS ONE K? THANKS.

Seven friends I want to pass this on:
1. Amelia
2. Claudia
3. Ria
4. Tiwi
5. Finka (don't tell me you've done this one as well T_T)
6. Dev
7. Cynthia (ha! hehe)

Okay, that's about it really..
~`JJe~ ♥




I'm starting to think that I'm shrinking.. It feels like I am.. or is it just me?
Anyway, I made a lyout. not a crappy so beginner one like the one I made for my little brother (no offence) - okay, it's still crappy.. but owell, I can't be bothered doing a super good one. The picture's crappy and blurry also.. as usual. So here goes if you want to see.. click HERE.

Not much to say. I'm boring like that. I'm sleeping early now.. so yeah.. (yes, early.. 1:02 is early for me in the holidays. I usually sleep like 2:30) Toodles.
~`JJe~ ♥




I am that generous to make my little brother a layout for his blog -_-' It's a bit messy though, I didn't do my best, but since he doesn't mind I don't care. Check it out and see what you think of the layout HERE. Mind you once again, it's messy.. and it's best viewed on IE.

I have to say that today's boring. Infact, the whole holiday's boring and it's so crappy 'cause there's not much to deal with which makes it just so plain dull. I keep on making a note to myself to go out somewhere or do something or even go out with friends or something, but no matter how many times I tell myself that, I'm still sitting in front of this computer of mine.
But come to think of it.. I haven't been going out with friends for along time, and I miss going to the City. I haven't been hanging out with people for quite a time.. I've been sitting in front of the computer, listening to music and do stuff in the internet which makes me realised that I'm such a lazy arse myself T_T Anyway, I'm going to start planning ways to get out of this house and to get this computer out of my sight. But for now, I'm going to take a shower.

~`JJe~ ♥




I didn't post yesterday neither did I go out. So I'm posting now and later I'm going out --just for awhile to find some things I want. I've tried to post yesterday though, but somehow I couldn't. I wrote for about four sentences and then I just couldn't be bothered to post it and I just crossed it straight away. I was about to changed the layout already as well, but my computer got hang and I couldn't be bothered saving it, so again.. I crossed it. Hmm.. I wonder why my egg's still not hatching..

Anyway I'm going to cook bread now so toodles. And check out the new LP song.

Edited:
My egg hatched! A red dragon!

~`JJe~ ♥




Another boring and dull Sunday.. I promise I'll get my ass out of this house and go out tomorrow.
There's so many things going through in my mind, even little tiny things that you don't need to think about. I always have nothing to say no matter how I feel, what happened and how many things there are going through my head. So.. I'll just type random stuff that comes to my head.

I have been unfocused lately, I don't know why. Mike Shinoda is so talented! LP's song always has a spark that doesnt make you bored everytime you listen to it. And why are they so fricken loveable?! X] It's so cute how sometimes people spell 'fuck' "fak". Whyy is everything so dull and boring and pointless?! -_-' After a while, I can't be bothered going to LPMB no more. I realised that I'm getting skinnier and my tummy's getting smaller (I was getting chubby) I want to watch the 'LOST in TRANSLATION' dvd. I like the word "lapf" I made it up and it cracks me up (that rhymes) I'm less random now and I'm getting more lame, so I should stop.

I wonder if people would remember my birthday and would say "Happy Birthday!!" to me.. but then I feel like I don't deserve it since sometimes I forgot about people's birthday as well, but I really expect the people who are close to heart and are close to me to remember. It'd break my heart if they don't, even though I won't show it. Like when I was in year 4 primary. I felt totally left out and forgotten. Not even a friend said "Happy Birthday!" and when I was year 4, I always make a surprise for everyone's birthday, even my teachers! (lol, i stll can remember). Not to mention that NONE of my parents were there, they were out of town. And I still remember that all I got was a walkman and the album Meteora by Linkin Park. And that's when I sarted to get so deeply in love with them no matter what. I don't expect anything though, all I want is a 'Happy Birthday" and money =]

I noticed the words "Happy Birthday" is mentioned alot of times in this post. Anyway, the song Red To Black - Fort Minor is starting to grow on me and I just keep on listening to it over and over again. Anyhow.. I'll end this now before you fall asleep.

~`JJe~ ♥