Thursday, July 06, 2006
its not gonna work out.. or will it?
aaargh! somehow my mood change alot today.. and right now im in a real bad mood. i was a couple of hours ago. but then i decided to distract my attention to something else, so i looked around for a good winamp skin to download and for some reason i was browsing through google, searching linkin park and found funny pictures of em and a good winamp skin. well that worked, it sort of distracted my attention and changed my mood to just.. normal. but what happened to my mood now? huh? HUH?! it friken flipped 180%! --i feel like swearing around for some reason T_T''' owell.. lets see if blogging can at least make me feel better. first of.. i wanna cut my hair, theyre getting thicker and longer, and it annoys me. i want a new jumper or hoodie cos that bloody jumper i have right now is getting too small and you can see my belly if i lift my arms just a little, which is friken annoying. i run out of pants, theyre either broken, or theyre too short for me, or it cant fit on my waist (oh ye i know i should be happy cos hey, i'm effing growing! *rolls eyes*) im always dying out of boredom if im at home doing nothing, but then if i go out somewhere it needs money and hey, im saving money here remember? hell yeah. the phone at home is broken, and dont say anything but i dont have a mobile. so.. my mum bought a new awesome wireless phone which cost hell alot of money so she ran out of money automatically, but not until next monday. besides, i have to wait a long time until i can buy new clothes. im glad im still growing (pfft.. duh!) but thats the thing.. i got less clothes to wear.. yeah i care about my appearance more than before now. i have a lot to do for Pesta Kampoeng's performance, but.. THOSE FRIKEN LAZY ASS HOLES CANT GET THEIR LAZY ASSES TO WORK!! so i have to wait.. T_T well they might have something else to do but theyre pissing me off! ARGH! loads of things are coming up to my head. and something which i dont know what is just.. making me.. argh! it makes me feel uncomfortable and have this unbareably.. undescribeably.. horrible feeling! *sighs in frustration* .... *screams*--okay.. that feels better. thanks for reading. youre my life saver! i would have thrown myself out of the window if i cant spill like this. ha. jokes. of course not, im not that stupid. oh hey, look im feeling better now.. im joking around. heh.. =P owells. this is enough.. i feel much better.~`JJe~ <33
5:59 AM
Just don't let me fall asleep, feeling empty again
