Sunday, July 30, 2006
me and my obsession with tallness and other things to say.. im glad my height is average and not too short. and im glad im not too tall. but still you see.. im OBSESSED about my height. and i would love to be just at least 5 cm taller than my actual height. maybe i always feel so short because i hang out with people that are older than me for 1 or 2 or 3 years. obviously i am short compared to them. but then again, if i compare it to other people in my year.. im not that short.. well average anyway. but i still feel small. i wanna be taller. but not too tall for my age. like ria.. i admire her bloody height. shes damn tall. id love to be tall like her. but if i compare to the rest of her age (like me and other people) shes too tall T_T no offence. its not a bad thing though.. but it does makes people jealous.. like me.. tehee^^ so id rather be tall, but not too tall. and itd be hard for me to find a guy. ahhahah. cos i dont want a guy thats shorter than me. ehheheh..^^ anyway.. surprisingly, i am SICK right now. yes im sick. sick as physically. not those 'pissed off' sick. i lost my oh so wonderful (not) voice. it goes bloody deeper and.. rough and you can barely hear it. my throat hurts.. its dry. and my ears are burning. and im not feeling that well. i wanna cough but i cant and when i cough it hurts T_T'''' my nose is sort of blocked.. a little. and my body temperature is i think a little bit higher than usual. cos i feel hot but cold. dang! why do i have to be sick in a great time like this? why not when im pissed off and in a bad mood like the days before on weekdays? i know it will feel worse.. but then.. if im not in a bad mood, which i am not right now, its ruining my day! i cant use my weirdly happy personality because of this damn sickness! T_T'''' i hope im well tomorrow. school is boring, but i dont wanna suffer this sickness at home doing nothing with music on.. chatting.. hot chocolate.. eat yummy foods... alone at home (or maybe not) ...a time for myself.. cleared mind with no algebras or maths or assignments or any school works in my head..... --its not that bad after all.. but i dont like this physically unwell feeling. but id be in a bad mood if im well at school anyway. argh whatever. im wearing black eyeliner btw^-^'' i was trying them on last night with dev. it didnt look too bad, so we tried another one today. --dont you friken call me emo or goth cos am not. shut up. and the other reason is that its still stuck from yesterday.. im tired now and i wanna eat. ~`JJe~ <33
3:10 AM
Just don't let me fall asleep, feeling empty again
