Saturday, July 22, 2006
the only thing i want you to do is leave me alone and piss off.im feeling down and pissed off right now so stfu and let me complain.im so sick of people expecting this and that from me. im so sick of people trying to make me feel guilty. im so sick of people judging me this and that when they dont exactly now me that well. im so sick of people telling me what to do and say and whats not to do and say. im so sick of people expecting something else of me. im practically sick of loads of stuff right now.. get the feeling im having right now? no? well stfu and keep reading.i dont expect people to do something really good to me. i dont expect people to know me well. i dont expect to not be sick of something. but i do expect them to stop trying to know me so very well and try to do something really good to me to make me happy, because believe it or not youre not gonna success and will be disappointed. and you will be sick and tired of me, and you will hate me even more. i also expect for people to stop effing judging me and except me for who i am, not for who i am not.by now.. you must be thinking some feedbacks to me. but PLEASE stop thinking dont say anything just read. im not trying to make fun or to tell everyone about what made me cranky so that EVERYONE can know and be ashamed of whatever that made me cranky. this is just how i express my feelings. i might react not very nice and nasty, but believe me, its not what it seems to be. if i act so mean all of a sudden, i dont mean to (or maybe i do) and i really appriciate people who actually listens to me instead if firing me back when im trying to express my feelings, because im a person whos not very good at expressing and spilling out what im feeling.when im down or pissed off.. mind this.. I DONT WANT ANY COMPANY OR PITY FROM ANYONE. i want to be alone and have a time for myself. i might act selfish or careless and always want to have what i want. but isnt everyone? i cant help it. i do care about other people. but i dont show it. so dont you EVER say something like.. "you always think about yourself. nobody else!" NEVER say that to me. or you will be sorry and regret it. why? cos then ill be screaming my lungs out at you.Yes maybe i do have the weirdest crappiest shittiest worst and strangest personality. but i dont care. i really dont.
--okay.. i was acting stupid. but then again, maybe i want to.
~`JJe~ <33
-Edited-
okay. the whole thing up there is stupid. anyway, i wanna add one more thing from all of those. 'im a fan of linkin park no matter what anyone say to me' =D and check out the new music under the cbox.
12:38 AM
Just don't let me fall asleep, feeling empty again
