Monday, August 14, 2006
exactly as i thought it would be. see. i knew it something wrongs gonna happen. well, the indonesian embassy doesnt have anything. not even an amp. so.. we dont have any drums.. yet. thats pretty bad eh? and well, my big brother doesnt wanna go to tuesdays rehearsal at south sydney. and im in a bad mood. when we thought we were gonna screw up and wont have a chance to perform at all.. well we got upset. we nearly not end up performing. and especially without drum kits. and we have problems. you see.. ugh, everything was screwed up. and how we heard that we were the only band playing, and how it was better for us to perform the whole 30 minutes, yet we dont have that much time. and how we need some equipments. frustrating. we thought we were gonna quit this whole band thing. it might be good. but.. seriously, when i heard dev said "maybe we shouldnt be performing at all.." in that hopeless voice with a drop of tear rolling down her cheek, my heart just fell to my tummy. i was upset, panicked, worried etc. but i didnt cry or anything. i was just quite, while thinking. cos it seems like.. my whole attention was towards this band thing.. and i was really looking forward to it. and well, when i keep telling myself.. "dont worry, big things starts with little things.. itll get better" ye well.. how? when? where? im going back to indo either december or january. dev will be going this month. then whats gonna happen? who'll be the lead vocalist? the rythm guitar? will it success with 4 people; 3 boys and 1 girl? --well, maybe when theres a miracle coming, like that paramore band. well i believe im not that lucky and neither is one of us. oh and what about the bass and electric guitar? theyre dev's. where will we get them when she left? can we find other people or person? just screw it. we'll perform. and things will get worse. then ill be back to normal when i go back to indo the end of the year or next year. oh or maybe not, maybe ill get stressed there. ahheh. i dont wanna think anymore. but look at the bright side.. we will perform and miss school and we will have fun at saturday at pesta kampoeng (without performing prbably) and ya ya ya. joy! -.-'' ~`JJe <33
3:19 AM
Just don't let me fall asleep, feeling empty again
