Wednesday, November 08, 2006
I can't feel anything without music. Nothing, none, blank. No matter what people say, it seems like my heart is blocked by thousands of walls that you can't break. I can't express myself without music. So yes, no music, no life.But really, I've been putting things on the backof my head and ignoring them, even assigns and school works. Everything comes around so eventually, it comes back.. and then I throw it away again but then again, it comes around and comes back to me. Yeah, if no one's actually here right now, I'd be screaming =] I'm just desperate, desperate of something to happen, desperate to change and to stop being easily jealous and just stop with these craziness I've been thinking. I'm desperate from all the assigns and tests to just fucking STOP and give me a break. But then what am I gonna be in Indo? Will I fail 'cause of my laziness? Surely, I don't think I'll do good though. Ha! I'm so pathetic T_T Newyas, I've been not wanting to go home from school, not wanting to go to school, not wanting to be seen that I actually don't know what I want. Weeeee, I hope things will be better when I move to Indo. I wonder..Rawr rawr rawr rawr. I just thought it's actually better to have no one there for you rather than having people who says they're there for me when they're actually can't help and is on the way, no offence people.Alive in me, inside of me, a part of me screams away silently
This part of me won’t go away, part of me won’t go away
Everywhere I look around I see how everyone aught to be
Every time I see myself I see there’s always something wrong with me - Part Of Me by Linkin Park
Thanks. Toodles.~`JJe~ <33
10:15 PM
Just don't let me fall asleep, feeling empty again
