Yeah, it does takes alot of patient to finally have a net at home eh? But I still don't have much time, I have heaps of things to do.

I guess school has been going better but I still don't like it. I don't know, I have this weird feeling and I don't really feel comfortable with anything. Anyway, I miss Aussie too much and I guess being here doesn't really.. dunno it doesn't feel like anything's worth it anymore. But being here makes you feel like you need to have good grades at school more cos somehow it's just easier to feel scared that in the future you can't stand up by yourself and ending up as a poor person or a hobo and you can feel that you actually need to have a good education.. which sucks.
But what makes it worse is that school isn't all you're facing and all the other stuff outside school is making everything complicated and confusing and you get easily frustrated - well I do - and yeah.. I guess there's alot more pressure here. Although somehow I just smile alot. Maybe cos I don't know what else to do I smile in that ugly way and laugh, but it does help cos it makes things feels lighter. Anyhow, I'm still screwed as ever and I'm trying to fix it and get rid of my laziness.

Alright, bye.