Thursday, May 31, 2007
Well, based on the previous post, my reaction was still abit.. I dunno. It was like still on the first hours after it happened. So I was still trying to make up my mind, arrange my thoughts and feelings, and trying to settle myself up. But anyhow, cheering myself up from everything that had been scrumbled up inside me was easier than you'd expect. I thought the best way, was to go walking-walking, and forget about every single thing just for once and waste my time. Ended up going to BSM with fira. I don't know why, but for some reason I wanted to pierce a part of my body. Knowing it would take awhile for my mum to let me do it if I do funny piercings, I did it on my ears again. Besides, it looked empty, cos I only had one in each ears. & We did some other stuff. Like watching POTC 3 until like 9 at night. So we got picked up instead. I have to say that we had fun. We laughed and stuff, and for once in a long time, I let everything flew. I didn't think of anything. Even my money, I let it flew T_T & it actually made me feel better. Other than that, I talked to ria too. She said something about that maybe I should focused more to my yearlies soon and stuff, and just let anything happens happens. I knew she was right. So I tried to do it. & hey, it was kind of working in a way. Maybe I'm still careless as shit in class. But surprisingly, I came first in my try out today. Unexpected. --Oh god, how did I do it? I don't feel like I deserved it. Didn't even know that we had a try out.. I hope my yearlies goes as well as that o_0 Now, I think I got myself together abit. I just have to keep myself that way. I was just at that point when everything that has been bottled up inside that it started to create so much pressure. So now I'm kind of trying to loosen myself up. So That's that. I'm letting everything go, so I can freshen up. <33Labels: etc., life, piercings, unlabelled
9:26 AM
Just don't let me fall asleep, feeling empty again
